Headin' down the Road

Well it has been quite a while.

Finals went meh. I'm not sure what I'm going to have to do about Calculus. I really don't favor the idea of retaking it, I've got the credits on my transcript so maybe I won't have to? Maybe I can do some fiddling with my degree and see what I have to take. I've been considering Psychology and Criminal Justice in addition to what I'm currently studying. Maybe I can do Poli Sci, and then explore Econ, Psych and C.Jus and see what I like, double in that and maybe pick up a minor or two. I'll have to see.

This semester is starting out alright. I possibly bombed a Finite Math exam today, we'll have to see on that. So far Econ class and weekly quizzes have been fine, but the exam was significantly harder. Death Penalty class is interesting although I already know what I believe at this point so unless we have discussions about morality or something it has the potential to get dull. Intro to Political Theory is pretty interesting and so far that prof is the best I've had. Of course basketball band is incredible. Especially with the way this team is maturing and getting significantly better, even in the face of injuries to key players.

Everything else is still just about the same. I don't think that anything has changed, at all. I'd still rather be in Goshen than Bloomington, and HARDLY because that would imply no class. I need to get to the point where I want to be in Bloomington and I look forward to being here. If that is not happening by next winter, when we have to sign the lease for my junior year, I'm going to seriously investigate transferring. 4 years of experience ranging from misery to mediocrity is not gonna fly. At this point that is the only thing that I can think to change that will fix anything. I've not heard anything that will be effective either. Certainly that presents a number of issues but if it comes to it that is what I will be looking to remedy.

I had a very good time hanging out with Neufeld when he came down to visit. Showed him around a little bit off campus, and when we went for a light lunch he selected Buffa Louie's, a wing place. This ended up being a fantastic choice as we walked in to see Derek Elston, Will Sheehey, and Verdell Jones III eating lunch there as well. I'm pretty sure Neufeld was quite pleased getting his pic taken with Jones and Elston. Later we had a very pleasant dinner at Mother Bear's with Wiebe and Suave. Went back to Suave's and hung out for a bit, played some darts and talked, which was quite enjoyable. Neufeld mentioned that he couldn't wait to be in a house like Suave's which allowed me to broach the subject that down the line he would potentially be able to join at the house that I will be living in.

Saw Blue Man Group with Tyler, Derek and Casey from study. They were fantastic, really impressive. We may go see Monty Python's Spamalot later this semester as well.

I've starting playing Black Ops with Nate, Kyle and Ian occasionally when they're online, and I'll probably play with Wes and some others that live with or around Suave and Tyler. So that's a way to keep entertained, but this weekend, like most, will probably be fairly boring, if not MISERABLY boring. I've mostly finished Assassin's Creed II, and I have the first one to play and some other games I'm interested in. Since I'm interested in the iPhone for Verizon as well it may be prudent to get a part time job, but that would be difficult without a car and they would have to be fairly flexible especially for basketball band. We'll see.

I've also been meaning to go to the Rec Center and start running. I took the first step in letting Emily know that I wanted to start going. She goes somewhat regularly I understand and I'm definitely going to need a push to actually do it. So now that I've actually brought it up hopefully I'm a little bit closer to actually doing it.

My roommate is still quite an irritation. Especially with irregular sleeping hours which keep me up for literally hours or wake me up. Like closing the door loudly this morning at some ungodly hour. This irregular sleeping pattern probably contributed to my current cold. He also shuts the freaking window and turns the heat on and turns this place into a sauna. After one particularly bad night where I laid in bed for around 4 hours with no sleep I had enough. So now when the asshole tries to sleep in the middle of the freaking day I play video games and blast the more aggressive and loud metal on my iPod. I'm tempted to start wearing a hoodie inside and opening the window more when he does that too. Also the odd behavior, especially not wearing pants even when I have a guest, Neufeld in the room, is just generally irksome. He also has this god-awful smelling lotion that makes me cough smelling that crap. But I have no problem being a jackass right back, opening the window or spraying stuff to cover that smell.

I'll probably go up and spend a weekend at BSU some point this semester, just hang out. We'll see. Jacque has wanted me to come up for a while, Max brought it up, said it'd be a good time. So some time I have a free weekend I'll probably head up on Friday and hang out. Last I heard Kasey is still planning on coming down for Little 5 so that should be a fun time too. Neufeld may come back once or more as well, who knows?

Also, I went to a rock concert last Sunday. A girl on Facebook asked if anyone likes Stone Sour, Hollywood Undead or Avenged Sevenfold, who are quite good. I was offered a free ticket when I said I liked A7X. So I skipped Big Red Basketball Band (hereafter: BRBB) to go to this concert in Evansville. Oh was I mistaken. I was under the impression there would be a group. < False story. This guy who is from Evansville drove down there, picked up his (HS Senior) Girlfriend and hung out with her after dropping us off. So let the awkward commence. So the bands ended up only playing 3 songs that I knew, they played more over the speakers during breaks that I recognized than they did during the actual performances. That being said Avenged Sevenfold is quite good, I just wish I'd have known more going in and that they would've played more of their good stuff. Stone Sour also played solidly, but I only know 1 song of theirs. There was over an hour delay between Stone Sour and A7X because some idiot got his ass kicked and had to be taken out on a stretcher.

So the concert was awkward enough being just the 2 of us (I'm not interested. at all) but oh was it going to get worse. So leaving the concert, and this is true of ANY rock concert, I had to smell like marijuana, booze and cigarettes, because hey, who wants to pay $40 or more for a ticket and remember the show? Stupid rednecks. Waited in the cold for the ride, left a Denny's in Evansville at nearly 2:30 am Bloomington time, with about 2.5 hours left to go. So the sleep situation was not gonna be good for a day.


It is important to note, before I cut to the chase, that already well before the Denny's I just wanted to be home and done with this.

Now, this guy driving us seemed to be respectable. He was very polite and seemingly soft spoken, he was wearing a freaking sweater vest for crying out loud. I was in the back seat alone since his girlfriend had been left at her house as we headed back to school. I tried to doze and sleep, but (importantly) I did not. I wish I had. OH I wish I had.

I tried to give them the benefit of the doubt. I told myself I was just playing it up in my head. You know how you can do that? You expect something or other and your mind construes any potential evidence that at all could maybe-sorta-kind indicate this and interprets it in such a way. I told myself, well that's a weird smell but hey, that could be anything. Oh well you know she's probably just tired, and he, being the respectable sweater-vest clad student he is, is allowing her to rest her head on his lap. Oh, well, that jingling which sounds exactly like a belt being opened is probably just change, or a random crap rustling in the car. I mean, he has a girlfriend that he JUST SAW. I mean, yeah he just spent a half hour explaining how he left sexually frustrated because literally everything that would've gone wrong in a freaking sitcom went wrong.

(On a side note, this was hilarious. Family wants to watch Tv, so the couple goes to the basement, until the family comes down to discuss the edition that was being put on. They leave, couple stays in the basement, dad comes home, this that and the other happens until even her youth pastor shows up. I swear I've seen something just like this on a sitcom.)

Anyway, I was finally convinced when, as we stopped at a gas station just inside Bloomington, they realized I did not need to be woken up, acted slightly awkward, and as he got out of the car he kept his back to the windows, which is not natural, and then I saw him do his belt in the mirror. Which means I was correct. Oh, I have never been so disturbed by being right.

This, er, situation, meant I spent much of the drive having to pretend to be asleep because the alternative would've been an explosion of awkward. In my head going alternatively "wtf? wtf!! WTF?!" and "Holyshitholyshitholyshit we're gonna die" Because I'm pretty sure that if anything qualifies as impaired driving it's that. This is a mistake I shall avoid.

So other than that episode nothing has really changed. I am now writing Jacque and Leah back and forth. Leah is really slow about it, and I haven't talked to her in a while so I'll probably text her this weekend. Jacque writes back quickly, not generally as fast as I do though, and I talk to her somewhat regularly. I'll keep going with the goal in mind this semester to get the ball rolling on pre-law stuff, being more outgoing, and going to the SRSC more often (read:at all)

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget.. you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes
Initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins
Contaminating everything
When thought came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(Null and void instead of voices)
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
When no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That shine for you
And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That lie to you.. yeah-ah

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home, sitting all alone inside your heaaaaddd

And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That shine for you.. yeah-ah
And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That lie to you.. yeah-ah

And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That shine for you.. yeah-ah
And it's the starrrssss
The sttarrrsss
That lie to you.. yeah-ah yeah

Ohhhoh when the starrs
Ohhh oh when the starrrrs that liieee 

Through Glass - Stone Sour